Assignment # 2.2 - 20 pts.- Interest in writting

Okay, Okay where do I start? I'm not to sure. This blog is suppose to be about my interest in writing. But I'm not sure where to start. I have a couple of different things in writing that interest me. This is going to be a somewhat hard assignment, because for some odd reason i can write just fine if i am doing a free write but when it comes to following a protocols and directional writing i am at a blank. It is almost like someone drops a weight on my head and i go brainless. LOL. If you look at it it is almost the same as speaking. There is a lot of people that can write a speech, practice it over and over and over again and then think they have it down. Then when they get up in front of their audience they are like duh. And they stutter lose track of where they are or even pass out from being so nervous. But lets get passed all of this and get back to the point of this blog.

Okay, my interest in writing is actually on a personal level. Almost everything I write is meant for my eyes and my eyes alone. I'm not big on writing public viewable stuff. Don't get me wrong i do write some but not a lot. What i mean by that is i love to write and write and write about my feelings and about the stuff going on in my life but most of that stuff i want to keep to myself i write it down to get it off my chest but in the end it meant for me only. Almost all of it is free writing in my journals. i have been writing in a journal since i was about 5 or 6. That is a long time. When i was younger i used to write everyday if not two or three times a day. Then as i got older and life got more demanding of my time i started writing less often but my entrees have gained in length by far my last entry i wrote last week was 25 pages front and back in my journal. But that's because when i start writing how i feel it keeps coming and coming, until i usually fall asleep writing. But if you were to read my writings you will see that i constantly jump from one thing to another and then after a couple of different topics i may jump back to the original one and finish what i was saying in the first place. This is because at any giving time i have a ton of different things going on in my head. My thoughts are always racing and they never slow down. This is partial to blame because i have bi-polar disorder. Not a lot of people know this about me because point frankly not a lot of people know much about me because I'm a pretty much to myself kind of person. This is also why i keep most of my writing to myself.

Another interest i have in writing is writing songs and poetry. Most of this is about my kids, my life or depression, love and so on. But no one will probably ever see my songs. When i was younger and was more outgoing i would sing then but now they are just kept in my little book of my stuff. Well I have a book of songs and a book i write poetry in. I do every once in a while publish some of my poetry on website or post it on my own but most of it i keep to myself.

I also like to write what could be novels i guess if i ever went to have them be published. I have written a wide range of stuff from fantasy to romance to children's stuff to life stories. As a teenager i wrote a couple different ones about unicorns and dragons, and a couple more on vampires, witches and so on. Then while i was pregnant and after having my children i wrote a couple little stories for them. Some of them about animals and childhood events and so on. I have also written a romance. But other then that not much. Right now i actually am somewhat writing a life story about being a mother with her children in the ICU fighting for their lives and how it has been for me healing since the death of my young son. These would actually be kinda nice to have published some day so other parents in a similar situation can have something to relate to.

And last but not least i like writing blogs on my children's page about how they are doing and stuff so that other people no matter where they are can keep updated on them.